Meno-PAUSE: Wisdom from The Missing Blog Years 2019-2023

Meno-PAUSE: Wisdom from The Missing Blog Years 2019-2023

It comes as something as a shock to realise that last time I published a blog was 4 years ago!  That was in a world where I was definitely in peri-menopause but (in hindsight) nowhere near the great initiation itself.  At the time, I remember that every bleed felt...
My breakdown and breakthrough

My breakdown and breakthrough

I am writing this imagining that I am sitting in circle with you, with my breath and nervous system sinking into the safety of a gathering of women in the woods.  The regulation and relaxation that comes for me when women come together, safely held, as we are in the...
The Power of Circle, Ceremony and of Letting Go

The Power of Circle, Ceremony and of Letting Go

Image: David Von Dieter Almost two years ago now, on my 47th birthday and held by a circle of wise and wonderful friends I performed a ceremony for myself.  It arose from spontaneity and intuition and from a deep yearning to feel more connected and deeply held by the...
Peri-menopause. Rage.

Peri-menopause. Rage.

I can feel it strongly today.  The rage.  The injustice. The urge to smash the patriarchy.  The urge to smash anything really.  The glass in my hand would shatter so spectacularly if I were to hurl it at my husband as a representation of all the crap women have to put...
Does midsummer unsettle you too?

Does midsummer unsettle you too?

  Midsummer.  There is a potency in the air, an intensity of energy building until it reaches it’s peak.  For me it is an unsettling time, my nerves are on edge waiting for this bubble to burst, a feeling that it is all too much for my sensitive soul.  Too loud, too...
Courage and how to love your inner fear

Courage and how to love your inner fear

The other day I went to a wonderful local cinema; with armchair seats, tea and cake. You might be forgiven for thinking that would be an easy, pleasurable thing. In the end it was, but if you could only have listened to the dialogue in my head and the feelings in my...